Sometimes, I grapple (don’t you just love that word?) with not feeling worthy of every desire that crops up within me. What I’ve realized, lately, is that everyone feels this way. You may think that Judy at work feels that she’s queen of the office and she feels deserving but chances are you’d be wrong. Even Queen Judy struggles with self-worth.
This subject is fascinating to me. My Spirit Guides talk a lot about how the Universe wants to give me what I want but it goes against my inner “people pleasing” personality. What if what I want isn’t pleasing to others? What then? Who “wins”.
I do. I win. That’s what my higher self says. But not in the mean-girl, me, me, me, kind of way but rather in the way that “I” means all of us. We are all connected spiritually. We are all one. When we allow and accept our desires fully, they serve everyone. It’s just that “everyone” may not be able to see that right away.
If that’s true, then it’s high time we start listening closely to our inspired desires. You know, the ones that crop up out of nowhere. The “wants” that continue to persist even if we try to stuff them down or put them aside.
SAME GIRL, SAME
I’ve started listening to my inner self more without judgment and without trying to fix or control things. My inner self says, “I’d like to make about 100% more money than last year.” Instead of stopping that desire and asking myself “How the hell is that going to happen?” Or “Why do you need that much money?” I just say, “Same girl. Same.”
The feeling of allowing and accepting my desires without judgment or figuring out “the how” has caused a sense of relief within me. Giving myself the presence and attention is a gift that I plan to keep on giving. Bye-eee, I am heading out to buy myself some flowers.